I've decided to continue to maintain the blog, but I won't be linking it directly any longer. I've decided that those who want to read it will look for it, or choose to follow it, and those are the people who are truly interested in my well being and being supportive of me. The other people who just wanted the latest gossip don't need a direct link to it.

I must admit that I'm a little hurt at how quickly the world jumped to conclusions when they realized that my husband and I are friends on facebook. I feel like I'm having to constantly justify my actions to everyone. We are friends on facebook, it's not like I am proclaiming my love to him for the whole world to see. We have children together and we are stuck having to communicate for the rest of our lives. I think it's also important to point out that you can still love someone even if you don't particularly care for them or their actions. I have spent more than half of my life with this man. Just because we aren't good for each other as husband and wife doesn't mean that we can't remain friends.

I understand it's been a few weeks now and that as time goes on people are less likely to call and check on you every day, that messages don't come as often and people feel like you need them less and less. However, I feel like the moment people saw that we were friends, or heard that he came over to talk on Tuesday evening-that everyone assumes that I have given in and have decided to jump back into this. If you are interested in knowing how it's going-please ask. Do not assume anything and please do not share what you think to be truth with everyone else.

I am not going to put myself or my children in the position to be hurt again. We've come a long way and we know we can make it and that we will be alright. We are going to continue down this path to happiness, the 4 of us. If he finds it in himself to make changes and is able to prove those changes to me and the rest of the world, maybe we'll be a family of 5 again. At this point I'm not holding out hope for miracles. I'm thinking practically and realistically and I am going to enjoy life with my kids.